Chessington is my second home.

Chessington world of adventures was immense. I screamed so much I can hardly talk. If you’re wondering why I went there its because it was a friends birthday party.
Half the time there I had to end up drip-drying because I was so wet from the rides that involved water. Everyone else was ok, but I was drenched.
What I’m basically saying was that it was great fun!
This ride I absolutely loved;


It was just a great day out to be honest. After it I still felt as if I was on a roller coaster.
So thank you Nicola for taking me, and hope you had as much fun as I did.

May 7th sucks!

Today has been so stressful; I want to run away somewhere, get drunk, shout at someone or actually beat someone like clay. I think by now you’ve guessed I’m not happy then?
It’s my friend’s birthday today and the whole day I was trying to be in a good mood for her because what she said the other day really got to me and made me want to actually make today feel good for her. But instead all I get inside of me is anger and frustration; I physically wanted to beat someone. No one particular but the fact was I just wanted to take my anger out on someone.
It started because I had a head ache, peoples voices in class was ringing in my head and I wanted to scream to tell them all to shut up, and also it was because I actually wanted to learn in a lesson, shocker I know but I would like to have a good future. I seemed rather snappy I guess, I notice now a few snide comments I said that might of actually seemed quite hurtful.
After this my day just got worse, having a P.E lesson doing nothing does drag by, but I did actually start to feel myself again, then there was more notice and I was hot and tired and wanted to just lay in my nice warm bed. After that I just wanted to be on my own, none of my friends around just me. Mostly because I was scared I was going to shout at my friends and that I really didn’t want to do, so most of the time I would walk away fast.
I guess that was the nice part of my day, after this it got so much worse. I ended up screaming at one of my friends because he had hit me in the eye more then once, then resulting in a black eye; I mean its not a horrible black eye, its just bruised and swollen, but I can cover it with make up. I wanted to cry when he done that, it felt like I was going to explode not because it hurt, it was because I felt shitty and angry.

I guess today has just been a long day, but it doesn’t help when you come home and your parents want to make you scream, talking about how you have no money all the time, and what I spend it on. They say it’s pointless and stupid what I spend my money on. Then when they give me money they blackmail me into trying to get it.
I wasn’t happy about that to be honest. But after going for a walk I calmed down again, I didn’t feel like crying and I just wanted to go to bed.
Oh! But I can’t have that can I, No, my boyfriend comes round and he gets a text saying horrible things and threatening him, in my case that is discrimination and it pissed me right off, it just put me in the mood to fight and kick and scream.
Now I’m here. Really not happy, writing this, that you probably don’t give a fuck about. But the reason I done it was because I thought if I write about my day, it might make me feel better. And Oh my god! It’s worked. You should try it sometime.

My addiction.

If you’re wondering about the title its ok, I don’t do drugs, and I suggest you don’t either. But I think I have a addiction, to hair dye. Well not just hair dye, I think I’m addicted to my hair. I try to keep it the same and I just can’t. I did say I was going to grow my hair, and that was going well, until I cut it into a bob. My addiction is like this, say if you get bored, you eat, or you watch TV or go out, but me I do something else, I get my hair done. I just can’t help it, I love the fact I can’t remember my own hair colour. I guess the other reason is because my mum does my hair because she’s a hair dresser, I would imagine if I had to pay to get my hair done I would be in some major debt by now, and I’m only 16 years old.
I only just realised today how much I have had my hair changed, I’ve had it all these colours;
- Brown with highlights
- Blonde
- Blonde with lowlights
- Pink
- Black
- Dark blue
- Dark brown
- Blonde and pink
- Light brown
- Purple
- Bleach blonde and purple
And that’s just the colour’s I can remember, I’ve also had all different hairstyles. Now can you start to see my point I’m making? I don’t think I can go a month without doing something new to my hair. But now I want my hair a different colour, at the moment its purple, but I want it this colour.

Now try and tell me I’m not addicted to something. Maybe it would be better if it was drugs lol.

Just another Quiz.

Using only song titles from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's harder than you think.

Pick Your Artist: Adam and the ants…

Are you male or female:
All Girl Action
Describe yourself:
Baby, Let Me Scream at You
How do you feel about yourself?:
Don't Knock It
Describe where you currently live:
Human Bondage Den
If you could go anywhere, where would you go?:
Room at The Top
Your favourite form of transportation:
A. N. T. S.
Your best friend is:
Desperate but Not Serious
Your favorite colour is:
Jolly Roger
What's the weather like?:
Catholic Day
Favorite time of day:
1969 Again
If your life was a TV show, what would it be called?:
Family of Noise
What is life to you?:
Friend or Foe
What is the best advice you have to give?:
Goody Two Shoes
If you could change your name, what would it be?:
B-side Baby
Your favorite food is:
Animals & Men
Thought for the Day:
Strip
How would you like to die?:
Killer in The Home
Your soul's present condition:
Cajun Twisters
The faults you can bear:
Ants Invasion
Your motto:
Can't Set Rules About Love

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter to everyone who reads my blog's. Hope your all having a great Easter holiday.
I'm so happy its Easter, there’s so many upsides, such as great stuff on TV like Red dwarf and Dr who, also you get to go out and about and do what ever you wish, and also you get to scoff on lodes of chocolate and probably develop a serious health issue because your excuse is, ITS EASTER!
Back to the point, I love holidays, any kind of holiday as long as I get to have a good time. But Easter for some unknown reason is my favourite holiday, you get new flowers start to pop up out of the ground, you get little baby animals and best of all you start to get great weather.
But the only thing I don't like about Easter is the chocolate... I know its a shock but I don't really like a lot of chocolate, it give me really bad head aches and also I just get bored of them to be honest.
But that doesn't stop the rest of the world scoffing on so much chocolate that it could probably cover the moon. Anyway, my point is, Happy Easter!

Ranting, again.

I have a new hair cut, yet again. I think I get bored to easy, and what with my mother being a hair dresser it takes one word, some snipping, and I got a new hair style again. Well on the bright side it doesn’t cost me any money what so ever, but on the downside, I think it must be quite bad for my hair. Anyway, I’m sorry I haven’t been updating it as often as I used to, its just I’ve been revising and been going out so much I keep forgetting. So that’s why today I’m writing this because I have absolutely nothing else to do and thought I would update everything.
My day today has been boring, I really want to go out, get absolutely drunk so I can’t remember anything and basically just have fun, but I can’t. Tomorrow I need to go into school for extra lessons, like revision lessons so I can catch up on my maths, and so I can actually get a C grade in maths instead of the D grade I’ve been getting, but the problem is, I’m good at maths. Well not like a brain box, but I’m not bad. Most of the time I get how to do it and have to help other people in my class. So I just don’t understand how I keep getting D grade instead of the C grade I need for college and things. And what is with that as well, most colleges only accept you if you have C grades in maths and English, although English is ok because I write a lode of ballshit and get high marks for it witch is piss east to be honest, but with the maths! WHO IS THAT CLEAVER REALLY…? I think I’m just feeling the pressure, and it’s making me stressed. But tomorrow I really don’t want to go in school for 3 hours just of my teacher gabbling on about triangles and Pie (definitely not Pie if I’m hungry) The point is, I just can’t take much more stress… I have problems at home, mum and dad are moaning at me to get a job, and help round the house. I’ve got nothing to do most of the time and that stresses me out because I have to sit there thinking about what to do when I really don’t give a flying F**k to be honest. I Think I just need to sit down, read a magazine and go for a walk so I can just chill.

Emotional wreck.

Today I’ve realised many thing, there’s always someone who needs a hug. I think I have been through a mountain of hugs today; I’ve been sharing the love! It has just been fully blown with emotion today. People are upset for other people, some people just break down at a single word, and some feel ill and just want to be alone.
But I’ve realised something extremely big today, and I know this blog I will probably regret because it sounds so utterly cheesy, but I’ve realised, no matter if someone does your brain in one day or if there loving the next, you always have to be strong for that person if they need you. And also, when someone says you will never understand, its true, but you can imagine the pain it puts that person through. And in my point of view, just give it some love!


(Cheesy ending I apologise, Dedicated to the one and only Nin nin!)